I'm SO right... no, wrong... no, right... SO wrong... right?
I had such a bizarre week. One part of me was super excited about the next chapter, but the other part of me was terrified and negative. I have to defend my ideas for several new ventures both in school for myself, and for unschooling for the kids. OMG can I just quit instead? This is like a nightmare for me! Here's my dumb brain: I can't possibly do anything right. I've never done anything right. Everything I have been researching is wrong. All my realizations are wrong. I focus on roadblocks, not opportunities. I see myself being defeated and unable to accomplish anything. I am not finding the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. I catch myself being an ass in my classes. I don't want to talk to anyone or work with anyone. I'm certain I will face criticism from anyone I talk openly to about my ideas, ambitions, goals, insights, and research on certain topics... so I don't talk at all and then get annoyed about the situation (all silently in my