WRITTEN OVER THE COURSE OF MONTHS: It's hard to believe I haven't been romantic with another person in over 2 years. I feel this pressure to not let myself dry up and settle into the comfort of not having to maintain a relationship. Some days I'm lonely. Most days I'm not. I read some articles about dating in this century and even those were triggering at first. Eventually I settled on match.com because it seemed the least likely to be for just hook ups. Y'all I don't think I'll ever be able to just hook up with people... and it's not a goal of mine. So, anyway, match. I made a profile, kept it hidden for weeks and didn't pay a dime. I finally unhid it last weekend and kept it visible for 3 days. I paid for 6 months. I was feeling a little flirty and positive. But then got TOO MUCH ATTENTION. It was overwhelming. I haven't been able to log in and look at all the messages or likes. I have this weird guilt with leaving people hanging, but also,...