A Common Fear, it Seems

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I can understand why this is the biggest fear among deployed or deploying men and women... the divorce statistics are mind boggling. I don't really know what I want to say about it, but I'm glad they made a postsecret. I guess I just want to apologize to every soldier, man or woman, who has been left alone upon coming home. I wish I could somehow talk to every S.O. and tell them something to make them stay so no one would have to come home more empty than when they left. I wish I could help everyone get through this stupid bullshit, but I can't. So, I will repost this secret so that somehow this shared fear will help you all feel less alone.

This song is the best representation of this situation I have come across.

And to Josh I say again... babe, there is no way in hell I am going to leave you. I am not going to leave you. I am right here. I am staying here. I am waiting for you to come home. I will wait until this is all over. I love you. I am still waiting, babe... I WILL BE HERE!! Just make it home to me. I love you. Please don't be afraid of an empty house when you come home. "Home" is waiting for you.

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josh said…
*sobbing*
how in the world do so many people have the same fears. not just the little ones and not just common ones, but the really big life altering ones? i try to tell myself that it doesn't worry me but i find myself questioning whether or not i could trully even handle it. would i ask myself these questions if it didn't worry me.
seeing that someone else actually fears this situation makes it seem that much more real. of course so does the movie "jarhead" but i didn't know that when i sat down to watch it. a political movie with a personal sentiment... absolutely depressing.
so yes... confession time... though not really... i don't think it needs to be said...not by me anyway... my greatest fear... changed the day i hit the sand... and will remain that way until i am able to sleep next to you again for longer than a few days or weeks... i know this sounds stupid, but i see it happen to people all around me... thats why I like my little corner of this country... no more than a few other people... and me without dealing with the rest of this army... its almost like my own little "looking glass" scenario... though alice never looked this shitty on her adventures i'm sure.
i know that you will be there when i get back... i know as in i have faith... that is all i will ever be able to have... and though i have seen faith fail... it is all the sanity that i have now and all i will count on because it is all i know and all i don't know and all i ever new and all i never will... but i will be home soon... and cloudy days will come to be appreciated... and i will never, ever leave again.
i love you, Allison Marie, and i promise that if you will be there when i get home then i can promise to come home safe.
i love you
-josh
12/05/2005 12:04 AM
Allison said…
yeah we both have our fears that cannot be changed until you get home... no matter what we say or do. I love you.
12/06/2005 9:51 PM
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