Aaaaaand BREAK

I am going to force myself to leave the house! I have been sitting around, trying to make the days go faster by grinding them into the ground with monotony. The poor kids must be so bored. I don't know where we're going, but it's going to be outside and hopefully fun. My shoulders are really tensed up from carrying Brennan in the front pack, but what can I do... maybe force Tristan to walk. HA! He just cries and whines all the time and it drives me nuts. I'm hoping once he gets out he will chill a bit. I got a few cute pics of the babies the other day in case you didn't notice.









That's pretty much all I have to say. I miss Josh. I always miss Josh. I don't miss his messes though.
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