Birthday Blog Before Bed

I am exhausted! I thought I had to do something special today so we went to Sea World. It was like 94 degrees outside with 82% humidity... NOT FUN, especially not for someone who's 6 months pregnant. Sea World is like being in a herd of cattle, getting rounded up from place to place. You watch a show, you stampede out and follow to the next show, more stampeding. There were some high points. Noah loved all the shows and I love seeing Noah so in awe of the animals. He also got to hold a snake, which was hilarious because as soon as he touched it he went :O and covered his mouth and gasped. Too cute. He got tired towards the end, and so did I. We only stayed for a few hours.

I spent a lot of my time noticing how there weren't really any groups less than 4, and they all seemed to include Daddies. I felt bad for myself. Then the heat and hormones really got to me and I cried a little bit at the Shamu show when they asked all the military and their families to stand up and everyone clapped and cheered louder than they did for Shamu. There really weren't that many of us there. I was happy for the gratitude, but at that moment I wished I was the one sitting next to my husband and clapping. I want my Josh. We couldn't really do anything in the water because it was just me and Noah and a bunch of crap I brought. What was I supposed to do? Abandon the camera or abandon the Noah. I can't really go into the jungle gyms with him and play around with a big diaper bag on my back. All I could do was pull him around in the wagon from show to show in the heat. Not ride any rides. So like I said, I spent most of the day feeling bad for myself and very very alone. I get tired, I keep going. I get frustrated, I keep going. I just keep going and going which is normally fine, but today it just felt unfair. I'm glad this is almost over.

So... I left the torture chamber and came back home to my central air. We watched Noah's alphabet video... OK actually Noah watched it and I fell asleep somewhere around C and woke back up at W hahaha. After the little cat nap and a lot of water I cooked my birthday steak and felt a whole lot better. I even felt good enough to tackle the dishes. Being alone isn't all that bad if you stick to things that aren't too difficult!! I was able to get Noah down at 8. I'm going to sleep like a rock tonight. The baby is churning inside my belly and I stink so if you'll excuse me, everyone. I am going to take about a 45 minute shower and go to bed. My 26yr old bones need to relax ;)