Long, Boring, Pictureless Update

Noah had a bit of a runny nose yesterday and I thought it was just allergies. Wrong!! I think he caught a cold from the little boy that was at the baby shower. Poor baby can't breathe through his nose and has a croupe cough. Last night from 1am til 2:30am he was waking up, crying about being scared again. He was doing so well for a few nights there, but I think all that drainage in his cranium was preventing a good night's sleep. I finally just kept him in my room and we slept until like 9:30. Today he's in good spirits, but still obviously sick. I'm hoping he gets over it really quickly and without any medical intervention. We've been relaxing all day. He took a 3 hour nap (as did I) this afternoon. Now we're just kinda lazing around. He's been laying in my bed watching a Little Bear DVD I bought him at Walgreens along with his Dimetapp.

I'm 26 weeks pregnant and I am starting to remember some things I forgot. Like leg cramps. When I was pregnant with Noah they used to wake me up some nights, but not until the 3rd trimester. Today and yesterday they've started back up, but they don't hit me until I wake up and try to move. Moving is for losers anyway hahaha. Also I remember my limbs falling asleep all the time. Full limbs... not the normal hand or foot, we're talking entire legs and arms. This one night last pregnancy I woke up to go to the bathroom, not realizing my leg was asleep, and suddenly slammed up against the wall and almost fell over when I tried to walk. Still didn't wake Josh up. I thought it was funny once I didn't get hurt or anything, but I'm sure it would have been crappy had I fell stomach-first onto the floor.

News: final word has been reached. Noah and I are moving back to Ohio with my parents. We were holding out for a few little glimmers of hope, but nothing worked out so we'll be headed out probably around July 15th. Hopefully we can somehow get Josh in the states by early September so he doesn't miss the birth and I can actually see him before I have the baby. Married people... well really anyone can figure it out if they think really hard why we would want to see each other before "labor" day. We haven't been together since April. We were trying to find a way to get him out here without using any leave, but the 4th of July holiday is in the middle of the week and there aren't any more holidays after that. So it looks like we're waiting until September. Booooo :P

I'm not looking forward to my birthday or Father's Day. I hate knowing Josh is going to be depressed and alone... again. Noah will call him and get on the webcam, but it's still depressing. My birthday is just another day... like Mother's Day. For some reason not having Josh here makes every holiday or special day a little disappointing. Somewhere in my stupid girl brain I expect to hear the doorbell ring and I open the door to Josh standing there in his uniform with flowers. Do I really think it will happen? Of course not, it's impossible. I actually had a dream about that while Josh was deployed. I was in the living room with a baby girl (at the time I thought it was someone else's baby) watching TV with Noah and right when she spit up and Noah was running to get me a cloth diaper, the doorbell rang. There was Josh in uniform with lots of luggage. Then I woke up.

I'm not depressed or looking for sympathy. I am just documenting one of my normal blah days. I'm grumpy and tired and that's pretty much all there is to it. Once Noah gets over his cold we'll be out exploring again, keeping my mind off of all this crap. I need to hop to it and get some things done before we move. Maybe coffee would make me feel better. Yes. Coffee and a clean house. Later, everyone.